I saw her today, in my dreams and it felt very real. She was lying naked on the bed in a naturally lit room which looked a lot like my bedroom in Istanbul, and I was there sitting next to her. I was observing the goosebumps on her breasts and wondering what led to those goosebumps, maybe my presence. She asked me something, something she needed help with, I was ready but then she hesitated and refused to accept the help and I drifted away from the dream, felt the light on my eyes and I was back in reality, clock showed its 9.00 AM and there I was happy sad to see her so close.
We didn't touch, we didnt make love, we didn't kiss, we only had a small chat, I got to see her face, I got to see my love and I wondered if this is the end, if this is my closure or was cosmos carrying her waves to me, was she also thinking about me.
Its sad that we are not together, but I hope this is not the closure, I need that weak and hair thin connection that I have with you, thats all that keeps me alive.
Forever thinking about you Pops, irrespective of where I am, what state I am, you are always there in my mind.
